Just when you think you're at your happiest....BAM!!! You get knocked all the way back down til you feel totally and completely sad and no hope of ever being happy again.
It can last from days, weeks, even months....and sometimes just a few hours or even less than that.
It's during this time that some say things they may or may not mean, will do things out of desperation such as suicide or something that could get themselves really hurt.
It's also a time to look at everything you have at this point.
There's a man who cares too much for others, who sacrifices his own happiness so that others can be happy, who writes his stories in hopes of being an author...he has a mother and brother who care for him deeply although they're strict, he's handicapped with a form of autism and is afraid of crowds, he has no girlfriend or even a girl close to that, he's used to pain and I see him get hurt everyday but I can't do anything about it....but he takes it all in stride...and keeps going forward.
I know this man well. He thinks he has nothing and that may be true...but on the inside, he has it all; kind heart, even kinder soul, always faithful to those he cares for, wouldn't tell a lie to save his life, and an enduring spirit to never give up no matter how grim things might be.
The man is me.
I don't have a cellphone...I don't have a car...I have no girlfriend...
But I have it all within and I'll keep going, no matter how much pain I have to endure.
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